Week two of the November No Boy Month and it was a much bigger struggle this week..
The reason’s can be broken down into two reason.
#1 reason is simple, I got to town for the shortest trip ever, I did find in the Canadian tire store, I let hubby go buy the oil for the snow blower and the new wet stone he wanted. While I looked at Christmas stuff and pushed all the buttons on the singing/dancing toys.
Then we went to the grocery store, we needed Cat and Dog Food and I wanted to spend my “allotted” amount on a few fresh things like Banana’s, Mushrooms, Fresh yogurt starter and they had a sale on flour, the big bag of the good kind on for 8.50 for ten pounds and I had to use money from week one and week two on this trip but worth it for that sale.
The URGE to shop, really shop, so many baking things on sale, the urge to put in a few easier meals into the cart, the urge grab a bag of something, anything that was “junk”
I made it out of the store with what we went in for.. but I truly felt limited, I felt a bit sad, a bit.. this sucks.. I let me myself feel it because It was a dang good reminder of it feels like when you are on a very limited budget, its a good reminder that others live and survive on extreme limits when it comes to these things..
It didn’t hurt me to feel those things, it reminded me that most of the time I am very spoiled in my current world.. most of the time I can and do walk in and spend and get what I want.. being reminded that its a blessing and a not a right is never a bad thing.
I was also sad to see that my small trip tired me out to the point of coming home and needing a couple hour sleep afterwards.
Then came the second thing this week.. Fatigue
I know, I know.. that is a strange word to use but it’s the one I am picking and sticking with, you see when I was so sick I could not see straight at times, I was so grateful to open a jar of soup or stew or chili..
Eating was hard enough but cooking really did not happen.. then I had a few good days, while they were not perfect they were good of course I over did it and find myself taking a every third day or so as a total rest day but at least some things are getting done..
fall is butcher season and I am so far behind and each day I do not get things done, the more money it costs us.. we are bleeding out hay at this point.. The fact that our butcher shop caught fire and that I can’t get in to a different shop (which will cost more travel costs, higher butcher costs, higher cut and wrap costs) and the fact that I can’t get in till late in jan..
Adds up to only one thing..
IF the lamb is being eaten by us.. We are home butchering it and I am pushing to get the biggest ones done, I would rather have whole back legs in the freezers waiting for me to pull out and process it, then keep feeding them daily and watch my winter hay being used at a faster rate then I want to see it go..
I still have a few ducks to go but 90 percent of the fowl is done, the pork is done, I brought in beef, so lamb is the last big push.. and I am sighing when I see someone posting.. got a deer and taking this long to process it because each of my big lambs is pretty much going to be the same and trust me when I say, I am going to be doing more then one..
None the less, over the time of not feeling well most of the easier things that I had prepped ahead have gotten eaten.. those premade and in the freezer cookies, gone.. those frozen cake pieces, gone.. those pre-prepped veggies, gone..
I have lots of frozen or canned veggies or fermenting veggies but I am down to beets, carrots, potato’s and onions for fresh.. that and sunchokes.. lots of sunchokes to come in yet.
For fresh fruit.. I have ground cherries, everything else is frozen or canned or dried..
For fresh greens, I have green sprouts, trays of them coming and mung beans coming..
I am not saying we are hard done by, we are not.. we have full pantries, all kinds of meat and dry goods.. Still I am blinking at it..
When I am fresh, I ADORE the challenge of figuring out new meals, new food.. when I am truly sick I am beyond grateful for not needing to think and being able to grab premade food..
Right now.. I am in the middle zone.. I want new food, new meals.. and yet I lag in it.. I want fresh food to add to my meals but I am holding tight to my no buy feb rules and I am feeling it. I need my creative mojo to kick in.. and that is where the fatigue kicks in..
Because I look like one of those teens standing in front of a full fridge and going.. there is nothing to eat.. lol
I am standing in front of a full pantry and blinking hard trying to figure out.. what should I make for this meal, for the next meal, for the meal after that..
Its the one thing that does not change.. meals and feeding your family must happen.. hubby needs things for work.. I know its because I am worn thin that I feel this way..
None the less its been a hard week in the challenge.. on a emotional level..
Here is hoping that week 3 goes more smoothly for me and my household.. On a good note, my blood pressure has gone back to normal.. it appears to be have tied to my illness so that is one less thing to worry about.. I am back to being in the normal zone again on multi checks.. A very good thing indeed.
So for those of my ladies that are joining me in my no buy Nov? how did your last week go, I hope you got though it better then I did..