Christmas Eve is upon us

Mr Bojangles has been with us now for two years this Christmas.

Its been a growth year in many ways, this also means its been a difficult year and there has been loss. Sometimes you seem to be able to move forward and there is so much room for the new and other times as much as it hurts, there is loss that happens to open up that space for new growth.

Miss Brandy is still missed so much, but without her passing, Bojangles would not have come into our life! Bo will never replace Brandy, they are so different but Brandy reminded me of just how much room in my heart and life I had to hear a snicker greeting me.

More often than not, the truth is both.  This is the first Christmas in a long! time that Hubby and I are having the holiday’s as a couple only.  Its been an adjustment and then some to get a grip on the fact that we will not be sharing time over the holiday’s with family or friends this year.

Samwell was truly a family horse, first living with us here before moving to alberta to be loved on by both my mom and dad and then heading up to northern alberta where he carried my brother and his girls on many an adventure. Despite his advancing age, it was still a surprise when he went down and the vet helped him over.

It’s just us, the critters, the farm and forest that will be sharing the holidays together and closing out 2018 and bringing in 2019.

When Samwell moved on, there was room in the pasture and our hearts for Caleb to come to the farm.

I have been doing a lot reflecting lately and part of that is been looking at photos, I love my Christmas Photos of my horse’s. It got me thinking though, sometimes people or animals you care about move on. It’s not easy but that is what is going to happen.

Sometimes you are going to just lose them totally! You are going to grieve!

However if you can when the time is right for you, open your heart and embrace the future, bring in the new! You will have to build those new relationships, learn each other and create those bonds.

The new will never be the old

but you have to keep moving into the future and embrace what you discover there.

It’s Christmas eve and Dear Hubby and I will be doing some traditional family things, we will open our one present before bed, we will be snacking on things that connect us to our families and childhood. We will be making new memories, new photos for me to look at in the years to come.

One part of me is grieving!

One part of me is in the here and now!

One part of me is filled with sadness at what was!

One part of me is filled with Joy for what is!

One part of me is filled with hope for what the future can be!

Today.. Well today..

I will honor the past, live in the day and allow myself to see the future for all its many truths both positive and negative..

Blessing to you all!

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15 Responses to Christmas Eve is upon us

  1. Thanks for this one FG, a very timely reminder. Much love sent for you and yours: ) xox

  2. Maryse Le Duc says:

    That was beautiful and sooo true !!!
    From my family to yours a very Merry Christmas 🎄🎄

  3. mariazannini says:

    Your babies are beautiful. Merry Christmas, Farmgal.

  4. Beautifully said, and wonderful words for reflection . A very Merry Christmas to you, your husband and all of your critters!

  5. Being a human is complicated. Have a very merry Christmas.

  6. Heather says:

    Merry Christmas Val!

  7. Carole Gautreau says:

    Thank you Valerie, I truly enjoyed reading your thoughts especially “when the time is right for you, open your heart and embrace the future”, lovely. Merry Christmas to you and Jason, love you both, you are very special people in my life.

  8. Marla says:

    Hi Valeria,
    I love your pictures of your horse and oh how inviting those beautiful animals are. I used to have a horse and love riding. Have a healthy,, happy & blessed Christmas day and eve.

  9. Love the Christmas horse pictures!

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