Its been a growth year in many ways, this also means its been a difficult year and there has been loss. Sometimes you seem to be able to move forward and there is so much room for the new and other times as much as it hurts, there is loss that happens to open up that space for new growth.
More often than not, the truth is both. This is the first Christmas in a long! time that Hubby and I are having the holiday’s as a couple only. Its been an adjustment and then some to get a grip on the fact that we will not be sharing time over the holiday’s with family or friends this year.
It’s just us, the critters, the farm and forest that will be sharing the holidays together and closing out 2018 and bringing in 2019.
I have been doing a lot reflecting lately and part of that is been looking at photos, I love my Christmas Photos of my horse’s. It got me thinking though, sometimes people or animals you care about move on. It’s not easy but that is what is going to happen.
Sometimes you are going to just lose them totally! You are going to grieve!
However if you can when the time is right for you, open your heart and embrace the future, bring in the new! You will have to build those new relationships, learn each other and create those bonds.
The new will never be the old
but you have to keep moving into the future and embrace what you discover there.
It’s Christmas eve and Dear Hubby and I will be doing some traditional family things, we will open our one present before bed, we will be snacking on things that connect us to our families and childhood. We will be making new memories, new photos for me to look at in the years to come.
One part of me is grieving!
One part of me is in the here and now!
One part of me is filled with sadness at what was!
One part of me is filled with Joy for what is!
One part of me is filled with hope for what the future can be!
Today.. Well today..
I will honor the past, live in the day and allow myself to see the future for all its many truths both positive and negative..
Blessing to you all!