How can a little tiny mini horse throw my training right back to square one, cuz that is pretty darn near how I feel about it this week..

I will admit that while I did spend a good amount of time in my younger years around horses, I have had a good gap inbetween, I have always been the type that either liked the horse or not.. If I like a horse, I will go the extra mile and then some and if I don’t feel that connect, I tend to typically walk away.

When Brandy came along, and I meet her, I knew! the first time we looked each other in the eye and spent time together that she set my heart and mind on fire.. she was THERE!

My instinct was that I wanted to spend time with her and create a working bond between us, sure we have ups and downs, always will, but just to see her can lift my mood..

Houdini however is a different matter, and I am struggling to find that connect, that melding, he is pretty in his color and marking, he is cute with his little horse face and his ewak ears, but he didn’t choose me and I didn’t choose him.. he is at this time indifferent to me.. and if I am being truly honest, my heart belongs to another..

I bring food, and water and time outside and he will walk nicely getting to and from where he wants to go and if I work with him, he can be lead into and or pressured to do things but there is no willingness, no trust and no partnership between us at this time..

Some of it could be my own fault, I took one look into Brandy’s face, we breathed each others air and I asked her both out loud and heart to heart.. want to come home and be my horse, and I swear I felt she said yes..

I have spent the past month telling “pony” that he is just on a temp pass, I was by no means not caring for him but I was not connected and when he tried in the first week to ten days to make that eye connect, and come to the front to see me, I would pet him and tell him.. I will keep you safe but your not mine..

Just like I think Brandy heard me, so did pony.. and just as I turned that offer down, this past week he has made it clear that he is turning my friendship down.. he will let me lead but he is not a happy, content or willing follower.

I finally had to step back yesterday and just think on it.. the only thing I asked from him was to let me give him a rub and pat.. and what I came out of that thinking is this..

I need to stop thinking of him as a burden, as a “What am I going to do with a mini! horse” with a focus on “getting him ready to find his home”.. Its just not going to work for him or me..

I need to have a turn around, a fresh look and approuch on this..

Houdini came into my life and that is a blessing!

Houdini is who he is and I am who I am, we will find a way!

Houdini is a horse and needs to be trained as such but before and while we do that, we need to build back his trust in peaple and in me.

Houdini is NOT Brandy and can not be compared to her!

Houdini will teach me things if only I let him, and learning is the name of the game in life.. this old heart has lots of room still, I just need to open up and let it happen.

Ok, so this post has turned out to be pretty personal to me, and I could go back and rewrite it but I going to leave at as is.. Have you ever had a animal come into your world that was unplanned and/or badly timed, that in the end turned out to be a blessing? If so, would love to hear your own stories on this..